The Unexpectedly Unexpectant Mommy

** Disclaimer  - This is going to be a long  post. I felt compelled to write this particular blog after one of my favorite Beauty Vloggers (RawBeautyKristi) tweeted about a doctor appointment that she waited 6 months for. 6 months just to have a doctor dismiss her 5 minutes into the appointment. It made me realize that what I experienced while trying to get help with postpartum depression is what a lot of others go through. It doesn't have to be. ** This is exactly what we do to ourselves. This is what we do with our mental health. We place that bitch on hold and hope that if we ignore her long enough that she'll hang up & not call back for a while. We avoid having to deal with her as if she's an ex that you see in the grocery store. You know the one. The ex that you end up taking a hard left down another aisle and pray that they didn't see you out of their peripherals. Whether we struggle with our mental health every day or just one in a blue moon, we all do  st

I don't quite know how to start this particular post. It's taken me almost a year to fully process and accept the "adventure" we have been on. I have been open and raw with you all when it has come to our infertility journey and things with the kids. It feels almost like I have been in hiding and that for me has been a whole new set of emotions that I wasn't prepared for. There have been a lot of ups and downs in the almost year that has gone by. This will be a rather long read, but I hope that you will hang in there and not judge too much. The last time I updated, I went over the baby shower, the arrival of Lincoln, and got to share a couple of photos with you all. It was such an exciting time in our lives, but we were hiding something bigger. My relationship with my husband was falling apart behind closed doors. I wont go into great detail as to protect and respect the privacy of Giovanni. We were still going through counseling and striving towards keeping o